Social-ize me

Social-ize me

I feel like I have smiling depression but in a different sense. My smiling depression isn’t really based on my self via pictures or posts, but more based on social events. If I miss a volunteering event or social event I feel like I failed someone or let someone down. I feel like people are relying on me to show up and be bubbly and poppy and the life of the party and when I am not able to show up I feel like I didn’t live up to their expectation. When it comes to my self-image on social media I could literally care less. I like to keep things real on my social media, although it takes me a moment to express defeat; I usually end up telling my “followers” the real tea. I just don’t like to let people down. My social media image that I have created is a 27-year-old college student; a mini philanthropist in the making that is always on the go and that can do anything and everything.

            I’ve heard mixed reviews on the effects of using social media, specifically, Facebook. It usually comes in times when we are down or out of luck, we open Facebook to see our virtual friends living the high life and wonder to ourselves, wtf happened!?! I try my best not to let it bother me but obviously the more we are on Facebook, the more we see these images of people living “better” lives than us, the more we fall into self defeat and depression. On the other hand, it can also push us to strive for a better life. When we are down it is easy to see the best in everyone else, but that’s all we see. We don’t always see the other opportunities for growth. For me it comes down two things: Depression or Hidden Motivation.